Why am I sick???

Why am I sick?

          When people become ill, they usually dwell on two questions.  Why am I sick?  How did I get this illness?  They spend a lot of their energy trying to figure out an answer to all the why and how questions they can think of.  I am here to tell you I have been down this road. It is okay to wonder about these questions, but do not allow yourself to dwell on it and be consumed by it.  Sometimes there is no straight forward answer to be found and people have to learn to live with the unknown mystery. On my healing journey of four years, I have done my share of research and wondering what is ailing me and how did I get these intestinal issues.  I have my theories on why and how this happened to me, but I truly believe my suffering is part of God's greater plan for me.  I have surrendered my illness to the Lord, and have asked him to heal me and guide me on my healing journey.

           I believe it isn't as important to know all the whys and hows of why you got the illness, but more important is to accept the suffering and learn what is it and how to treat it.  God has a plan for everyone.  Suffering and challenges are important parts of life because they provide people with new opportunities and lessons. I believe God created suffering on my journey, to teach me and give me greater opportunities.  Suffering allows God to help people move to a new opportunity in their life that they may have not realized if they were not in a suffering state. So far I have learned so much about real food, allergen free food, nutrition and a whole new way to cook to meet dietary needs. I feel blessed to have acquired this knowledge on my healing journey. I am happy I have suffered because it taught me great life lessons.  I believe God has bigger opportunities for my life that have to do with nutrition and cooking.  I just have to be patient on my journey until the holy spirit unveils the grand plan.  

           During my journey, I have tried to focus on the healing aspect rather than dwelling on the reasons for my illness.  Through research, acquiring knowledge and prayer, I recently found some ideas to help heal my body. When I focus on being proactive in healing my body, answers start to come and the picture becomes much clearer. I believe the emergency c-section I had with my 4th child started the small intestinal bacterial overgrowth.   Since the doctor I had at the time did not properly diagnose me, my SIBO went undetected and untreated for more than 2 years.  Since my condition was left untreated for so long, my body developed non-celiac gluten sensitivity.  After the gluten sensitivity was diagnosed, my body went on to develop other food sensitivities.  This is my theory I developed on my road to wellness and health about how I became ill.  Whether this is right or not I will never know, so I focus on the fact that my suffering is God's way to shape and mold me into a better person so I may do God's work.  In my life I try to find the positive in everything and express gratitude for all the blessings in my life.  I am learning its all about the little things and human relationships in my life that create the happiness and joy I choose to have each day.

           I am proud of myself that I have done enough research and detective work to develop my own theories as to why I am sick. But more important than the answers to these questions is acquiring the information on how to help heal my body and grow more deeply in my spiritual life.  Life is a puzzle, and we all have to have patience and strength to put all the pieces together. I have learned how important it is to live in the present moment and enjoy each moment as it comes. God does not want you to have worry or anxiety.  Worrying about things you can not change or have control over is a waste of precious time.  Choosing to be happy, thankful and joy filled daily will give you the strength to continue healing yourself through food and positive thoughts even when times get hard and challenging.  Choosing joy , happiness and love are three essentials to help aid you in healing your body.  There is a deep mind, body and soul connection.  Surrender your journey to God and he will provide what you need and make great opportunities come your way.